Ohayoo gozaimasu! Thanks god today is a beautifully fresh Saturday! Counting the days off, i am officially a working adult for 1 month and 3 weeks. Shoes off from being a student, a lot of liabilities i need to handle. Either from the top or to the toe, everything is declared to be independent. And there are many changes made during these days. I would say the starting is blur and EMOing. I compared every single things to the friends i made. The hardships i had to face along to make new friends. After long, i admit the gaps among me and the colleagues are still there because there is no good to be too friendly in working. And, gaps would make me looks a little but sound mature and mysteriously interesting. The theory of this is actually grabbed from a simply silly gifted book, current housemate and current next-to-me's colleague. And I take their advice because i don't want to repeat my silly similar mistake i did 2 months ago.
RECALLING the story of 2 months ago...
I admitted i'd pointed everything wrongly which made me totally looks like a silly childish. Because of a simply pointless person's doing, i lost the greatest appreciated friend who rode me and helped me so long. Nothing much i could do further but to hope for spacing would slow down the disaster. I am wondering for the meet in the hall of DTC for my convo. I think i would have no idea of facing the situation:- A historically close stranger. No idea of asking fine and no idea of sharing story. That's scary.
So what i do now almost everyday...
I think my current housemate would think me a crazy for continuously reviewing my uni life's photos. What to do? I can't stop missing the memories that was built during my university life. And, the last part of splitting ends up not having a good bye. Actually I still want to keep trying to drag the gap closer like our last times. But, i have no idea of the way to start it. And, the choice of choosing my final year project during last part of semester had made the gap great. So, I admitted that I had missed the golden chances given by them. How much regretful i am also won't be getting any forgiveness from either one who placed a lot of expectations on me. Once again, it's something mistake i did from silly immature of organizing myself.
MAY BE...
To either of them, i am nothing. But never mind, i would change myself. I would thank them for building me a better person. And again, they had placed me to learn to be a more mature one.
Hinting myself for every moment i am going to have...
1. Calm myself down when something unexpected come to me
2. Give and take from time to time
3. Temper controls for any hardship i gonna meet
4. Importantly mature control and pointless nil
Again, I am super missing one of my roommate, one of my baba, two riders aka homework advisers during my uni life. I miss them so so so much... do they the same missing on me??? EMOing~ They wont be thinking of me anymore....aih~
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