Langkawi

It's a very nice happy holiday gathering with hometown's friends. It warms my heart with relaxing spend after working life started. It was a non-scheduled flexible holiday visit. Always, only hometown friends the better or could be said that friends from small/young know me better. The friendly feels are always so much different.

Having enjoyed the sea views and foods at Langkawi, the ending of 2 days there make me feel sad of leaving it. The giant owl wasn't that ego in welcoming me for my first visit there. It was in injured conditions. Oh, the pictures taken wasn't nice as expected. Stayed in the hotel, we voice our heart kept hopes and eager. Only there, we spend to share our current life, our future plans and future loves. Only them, I feel safe to share. Only them, I have the courage to share how eager I am to have the special one. Only them, I feel happiness when we get along. Friendships smell so nice among us. I love that moment to the max.

Spending my journey back in the boat, I am grateful that i got to spend my days on the island even it was raining day. I am grateful to be given the opportunity to spend and live a better life. As compared, I looked like a burden without any nice contributions when I had no transportation. As compared, I looked like a hungry ghost sucking others' bloods just to get my survivals. Whatever I did in that part was simply fault and mistakes. Whatever shits that people created or something I never did, I had to swollen. Great that I was given an opportunity to start all over again with the learning in the days past. Thank you! Always, there is a reminder for myself: Place a gap and distant myself for my own sake! Sad to cultivate this kind of spirits. I had badly learnt this up.

Ang Shin Yee, Only family should be served in the first place and better life. Other than that, they all are just strangers or friends with boundary! Next treat to my family is Langkawi trip. Yeah! :)

Things on today

Too many things happen on this day! It's all on 27.8.2011

I met an accident two day before this. I repaired it on the date of this. After repaired, the car no longer move longer. It created problems and I was silly to call off the whole gang of the villager just to get a battery. Something learnt from this day, friends are everywhere to make and we are human helping each other to go along together. I've to nice to everyone! yes, thank you!

The date of today is my master's birthday! Wishes were delivered and he had got his own beloved best friends to give him loves and comforts. That's good! Life apart, we are separated. And, we were yesterday's historical memories. Good luck, my dear friend! Wish the best be with you! It's time we meet our ways and our own life. Happy Birthday! :)

The date of today, I am free to live myself alone in the house again! It's actually better for myself to have troubles off. I'm no longer ok to take care of others. I almost collapse. Sorry~

Bad Saturday

Sawatdee ton chao~ Today, I'm Thai kha!

It's not a good Saturday for waking up so early at 7 in the morning. The mosquitoes are so disturbing! Hate them so much! They made me scratched everywhere. They put "morning alarms" at the wrong timing. They sucked my blood for no reason! And, they tracked me along where ever I covered with my blanket & jacket! Awhhhh, no patience with it! Tonight, I will shield them away! Hmpkkk!

Adding up for not a good Saturday is:-
One more silly deletion, But it's okie~ Luckily, the fellow place no importance at all to me! Haha, I can understand why! We are colleagues who can only share works info. And, we have to keep privacy apart! Super nice! hahahaa~ The fellow taught me a lesson that do not simply let my info to be shared with my colleagues. That fellow scolded everything on the works. Now, I know that everything must to be careful! We won't know what's the facial expression meant to you until actions speak to you. It's so hard when cautious is the first entrance for the friendship. And, behave ourselves in manner is so much important! An adult won't be given second chance. Either, you will win it or you lose it forever! Ang Shin Yee, you have to set the reminder in your alarm from time to time! Ang Shin Yee, silence at the right time and make noice in right seconds.

Adding up for not a good Saturday is:-
Fighting with current housemate again which I started at first! I think it's so silly to feel pity to such a no mannered person! What is it to get a perli back? No more being friendly in the first case! I will shut down every kindness!

It's silly all the times. I also will roll the tears down! You thought I can't? Everyone push me as if i have no feelings? I am so bad tempers! God, no more medicine to cure me already. I am so much problematic!

It makes me look silly immature again!

Lepak'ing at Pavillion

17.8.2011
It's simply happy when everything back to my own lifestyle. Having hometown's friends visiting me, we shopped, tried everything and targeted the things we gonna buy. Oops, that's my life. haha. Today is totally my day.

Back to um and had my favorite chocolate peanut butter waffle, sitting at the bus stop in front of main library as if everything back to my previous days. Back to the areas around Pavillion, I spotted the fountain, La Bodega & Sports bar and not forgetting the Bangkok Jam along the bb park. Wow, that's my interesting historical scouting for Dr. Foong. I love revealing that. Hahahaha~

Shopping at Forever 21, I spotted 4 clothes and I promised to myself to buy it one by one monthly~ Yeah, that's my life to treat myself well. And seriously, tomorrow I am going to be serious in my work. I wanna work properly simply for my favorite shopping. Yes, for the sake of my luxurious life.. hahahahahaha...Can someone wish me luck with that? Gambatte kudasai! I'm lovin it, simply borrowed from Mc D. hahaha..muackssssssss

Beautiful sunrise made my day

This blog is supposed to be written down by 16.8.2011 yesterday. I would love to note down because it's simply meaningful to me. There is a result after so long of asking fine and wishing. Thank you very much. I was so happy, touching and grateful that i am not forgotten by him.

Waking up as usual in the morning to prepare for my daily working and 6minutes spent for facebook news feed are my daily habit. It was shocking me that the moment i chose to give up asking, master came out with the post which made me feel the guilty of hurt scolding him. I felt that he need cares. I know how much he loves freedoms but he needs cares more. He is simply cool on the facial expression but he is actually having a warm heart. Else, he won't be that patient dealing with me for almost 3 years staying under the same roof and riding me everywhere we went.

Hereby is the starting of my yesterday,
On my way to work, there was a beautiful sunrise presenting in front of me. A large roundish red sun rising up as if the day is welcoming something nice. And i believe there would be something good going to happen on me.

I listened to the news by AI FM, hilarious act when being fooled by ONE FM and the songs. Out of sudden, there is a soundly mumbling in my heart, that : " It's ain't an easy for a guy picking me up for almost everyday. Some more, we are nobody to each other. Isn't it he is kind enough? And, I pointed everything and scolded everything to him? How bad am I? Shall i asking fine to him? May be for the very very last time? And, for the sake of his kindness even possibly he had wrong? And remember, i am the one to seek his apology...?"

Sooner, I reached my office and asking for the bravery to pick up the phone and sms. For the very very very last time? And then, it looked like really no feedback anymore. And, i thought i have to prepare for giving up. My care might be draining into the boundless sea again. Disappointment sounded badly. Never mind, I focused so hard to get myself busy on works. I left my handphone in my "kangaroo" pocket...!

And then,....
5S housekeeping at 4pm, I was so busy facing the dust and heavy stuffs. I checked my phone for any incoming message. Shocking me, there was a reply! Ohhhhhh, is it real? "Thank you" replied by him? He was asking me fine? Is it he? after so long of being cool? God, he still treating me as friend! I told myself to be calm down. And, think properly what to reply back. And, actually i don't know what shall i say.

For the 2nd message, there was no more reply. Never mind, i was thankful to have the first step. I won't be so demanding to aspect so much if I have the initiative to keep further in touch. I've to learn pull and push the string so that others would not be tension when making friend with me. Yes, I had seriously learnt up. Thank you! I have to improve my mature level! As my ex roomate told me, everything has its mid point. Doing it in the moderate amount would seriously make me looks mature. Thank you, CP! I miss you so much even you don't know... hahaha, u had taught me so many things. Thanks for the shares. :)

Grateful that he and CP left a step backwards when I was slow progressive! You two built me the most! Love you both! Thank you! Can I further missing you???? heeeee....goodluck oh! Invisible huggies secretly sending to you all... Gambatte gozaimasu!

Too many songs for the day of 16.8.2011 to happen. Below is on Westlife

I lay my love on you (Laying my cares for taking care of me so long)

Hard to say sorry (It's hard to seek apologies and I am really sorry)

Something right (For the last step i did and it sounded correct)

Seasons in the sun (Sunrise which made my day)

Hope everything can turn nicely after. Thankssssss :)

  


 

Bravery of letting go

I am touch for the initiated lovely invitation from coursemate to gather everyone of us in a big group! But really and honestly sorry, i had just lost the bravery to attend the uni gathering even there are memories among some of us. To me, the feel of missing will be all enough for me. At least, i can imagine the nicest scene i want to preview. It's time to slowly let go for the one I possibly wrongly hurt. I wont be given chance anymore for the apologise. Possibly, i am not that important to him! I knew he found his job and I am so happy for that. Great wishing him! The moment he grabbed his job is just meaning it's time for me to full-stop messaging. My further effort of sms and messaging will be only end up draining into sea. We are so much different type of world and our met was just the accidentally time knocking on. Momentary happiness which we accidentally met to stay and play happily together. Good luck to you! I clearly know that I am no longer belong to your list of asking fine. Nevermind, keep tracking on your future undertakings and truly be yourself. It's just the timing up for me to continue asking. Good luck my beloved master! Thanks for everything and have the very best one. I would still always remember u. May u & ur family be blessed.

P/S: Do not spread your angers in front of your colleagues! Spread it in front of your lovely beloved best friend or family. Blessed with the best one!

Heartfelt missing and recalling (13.8.2011)

Ohayoo gozaimasu! Thanks god today is a beautifully fresh Saturday! Counting the days off, i am officially a working adult for 1 month and 3 weeks. Shoes off from being a student, a lot of liabilities i need to handle. Either from the top or to the toe, everything is declared to be independent. And there are many changes made during these days. I would say the starting is blur and EMOing. I compared every single things to the friends i made. The hardships i had to face along to make new friends. After long, i admit the gaps among me and the colleagues are still there because there is no good to be too friendly in working. And, gaps would make me looks a little but sound mature and mysteriously interesting. The theory of this is actually grabbed from a simply silly gifted book, current housemate and current next-to-me's colleague. And I take their advice because i don't want to repeat my silly similar mistake i did 2 months ago.

RECALLING the story of 2 months ago...

I admitted i'd pointed everything wrongly which made me totally looks like a silly childish. Because of a simply pointless person's doing, i lost the greatest appreciated friend who rode me and helped me so long. Nothing much i could do further but to hope for spacing would slow down the disaster. I am wondering for the meet in the hall of DTC for my convo. I think i would have no idea of facing the situation:- A historically close stranger. No idea of asking fine and no idea of sharing story. That's scary.

So what i do now almost everyday...

I think my current housemate would think me a crazy for continuously reviewing my uni life's photos. What to do? I can't stop missing the memories that was built during my university life. And, the last part of splitting ends up not having a good bye. Actually I still want to keep trying to drag the gap closer like our last times. But, i have no idea of the way to start it. And, the choice of choosing my final year project during last part of semester had made the gap great. So, I admitted that I had missed the golden chances given by them. How much regretful i am also won't be getting any forgiveness from either one who placed a lot of expectations on me. Once again, it's something  mistake i did from silly immature of organizing myself.

MAY BE...

To either of them, i am nothing. But never mind, i would change myself. I would thank them for building me a better person. And again, they had placed me to learn to be a more mature one.

Hinting myself for every moment i am going to have...

1. Calm myself down when something unexpected come to me
2. Give and take from time to time
3. Temper controls for any hardship i gonna meet
4. Importantly mature control and pointless nil

Again, I am super missing one of my roommate, one of my baba, two riders aka homework advisers during my uni life. I miss them so so so much... do they the same missing on me??? EMOing~ They wont be thinking of me anymore....aih~