Supposedly graceful but turn out to be awful, yet there is a slight positive

The changes in Ang Shin Yee for year 2015:-
A year 2015 was supposed to be the most graceful year for her.
However,
She successfully screwed up her own life that she lost almost everything in time.
She did it so badly and was trying so hard to win people's heart. But, she didn't win the situation.
She was in the midst of adjusting everything and failed everything at times
She had realised that she was so wrong in trying to get the both sides to close to each others.
She realised that she need to give up her favourite designing using SolidWorks
She did it so purposely to let herself transfer to an easier job
She did that so purposely so that she can maintain financially secure
She needed to choose either family or being a boss's favourite
She went for prayers in the temple so frequent for her first time in her life time
She spent on exercises in the gym which she felt exercising in the gym was so much luxurious
She dyed her hair reddish purple which she wasn't that dare to try out before
She changed her hairstyle by curling up which she was so reluctantly to do it since 18
She painted her nails in her favourite colors which she never dare to do that before
She spent on a piece of cloth or dress and costed her hundreds over which she won't do that before
She spent so much on make up which she wouldn't spend on it before
She forced herself saving 200monthly which she failed to do it since she started working in 2011
She invested and made herself poor in Property that she thought she won't be doing it so soon
She sang Karaoke so lonely in k room that she thought she wouldn't be doing that in her life time
She watched movie alone for the first time so lonely
She forced herself so strong to stay in the big house deep inside a remote area with no one
She finally learnt that things no need to be planned so well because it would have fail somewhere without notifications within short while
She found herself that she trust people too easily and got hurts by doing so
She went for a slimming package which cost her broke simply just wanna get herself back like 18yrs old
She is so serious about food consumption and so carbohydrates calculating now
She went for a movie "Alvin and chipmunks" alone in the cinema and that made her looked so stupid ugliest for her lifetime.
She has her phone un-ring more than a day with no one missing her for the first time
She realized that she would have taken so many good things for granted.
She needs to learn about tolerance, appreciation and communication.

OMG! ANG SHIN YEE, you cried and crying hard to make the changes.