Again, the disappointment

The ex-spouse's atitude:
Again, the same he gonna trying to drama to just prove that he is so much professional in dividing between the professional & personal. Well, I don't think I am over doing something. I did the same to all the sub-leaders. But, the response from all are same except the he.

Again, he is trying to appear like he is so much professional to able to sit in front of you with existence of everyone. To me, it is just a drama that i been watching. Well, ignorance started to be my vocab since then. Drama is just everywhere. A gentle leader or a man would be able to speak with facts during a personal or professional conversation. That's it.

I thought I am little smart in making a choice. Untill then, my marriage fell apart, it proved that I am the silly material.

Well, being compared to the sub leader with lancy atitude, some part i do salute him. He is lancy but straight to the point & able to deliver at least some conclusion with positive outcome.

Uhhh, the ex-spouse is just remain improving 0.1%. The ex-spouse is just able to disappoint every parties without failure.

The last week back in hometown.

So happy to visit grandma again. This is a culture my mummy instill in us since baby. Family reunion & unite. Mommy always stand by side. Mommy's love wins everyone. It is just not a love that a spouse would do. If to be exact, the ex-spouse's atitude is a silent voilence to me. He wants to have his own decision with hearing to your opinions. But when giving about my opinions, it became a negativity that it appeared as if i am trying to be dominant. At the end, it wouldn't be a happy solving or sharing. The love is not about holding hands and doing whatever as like a couple must do only. The love among the spouse is about the commiting & helping each others for every situation & condition. To be exact, love is not the surface only. It is not how good he looks like. It is about he is really good in giving the respects & supports. Obviously, I am not having any. And, the divorce is the best gift from the heaven. It taught me a lot since then. I am seriously tired. Haiz... Ang Shin Yee started to silence a lot from all the things. Ang Shin Yee's inacent & initiative had been seriously killed since then.

I build my own home,
I fight for my own financial,
I argue for my own right,
I move the mind for my own sake,
It's repeated again & again with day by day...Until, I had lost majority memories & impression.

The only one i did it successfully was the video was not been repeatedly watch by me since don't know when.

I meet every new person by serving people a drive.
And, each of every passengers when asking about my marital status, it turns out to be different answers.

"I AM SINGLE"
"I AM DIVORCED"
"I AM NEWLY MARRIED"
"I AM MARRIED WITH NO KID"
"I AM MARRIED WITH A KID"
or
"I AM MARRIED"

At the beginning, those status was appeared to be a matter to me.
Slowly, it was digested into no matter.
Slowly getting used with it, it is just a sentence with a probable paper stated to me.

It turns out to be:
"Do a non supportive marriage matter at all?"

Grandma was giving a very straight-to-point's advice. A person looks good & he may appear to be everything good. But most importantly, does a guy treat you the best? If he treat you good, means he is the good to be with. Grandma was not given notice about the divorcy. But, in this 5years time, she been watching her grand daughter alone with all the trips back to hometown. After hearing popo's advice, i was actually wanting to cry out. But, it is just a tear without sounds. Because popo was bed ridden for 4years already. She is very tough. I love her so much.

Ya, popo, it is so much sad that i am stuck in my career & my family growth. I am seriously looking for a man who is responsible to family of me.

I pray hard for everything to be turned into rainbow's colour.

I pray for a Mr Right who loves me all he can.

I pray for a Mr Right who can share together & laugh together & cry together.

Super sales for lelong! Oh no~

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