每每收拾一遍家里，每每反思。。。
我的生活素质也只不过如此。。。
哪怕，如果我没跌倒。。。
或许，家更像家。
只不过，生活没有如果的假设性问卷。
我的万一尽然如却实践。
这一波，就迈入了第5个年头。
觉得，有点很累。
我想有个愿意出钱出力的。。。
可以投资在我身上的。。。
帮我翻新我家的墙壁。
帮我翻新我家的厨具。
帮我翻新我家的厨房。
帮我翻新我墙上的家庭照。
吸引力法则。
我会一一改变我的家里气氛，有望您帮我加分，遇见贵人，遇见好人，遇见给我一个实感的佳人，把我所有所有预想的全都实现，我信您之，您赐我之，感恩您!
啥是老伴？就是為你操了一輩子心，只願你好的人
啥是老伴？
老伴是在一起最久的朋友。
一天天，一年年，
從日出到日落，
她陪你走過了半個世紀的時光，
和你一起經歷人生的風風雨雨，
和你一起克服生活的坎坎坷坷。
啥是老伴？
就是和你爭過，吵過，鬧過，
但仍關心著，牽掛著，包容著你的人。
啥是老伴？
老伴是最貼心的知己。
她知你無法言語的苦，
懂你養家糊口的累，
有時候，
你不用開口，
一個眼神，一個動作，
她就知道你想做什麼，想說什麼。
啥是老伴？
就是為了幫你減輕壓力，
寧願自己苦點，累點，
只為你們的家能更好。
啥是老伴？
老伴是最大的恩人，
在你生病時，
她會陪著你，守在你身邊，
照顧你，直到你痊癒；
在你貧窮時，
她不會嫌棄你，離你而去，
默默陪在你身邊，
鼓勵你，支持你，直到你成功。
啥是老伴？
為了你操了一輩子的心，
陪了你一輩子的人。
啥是老伴？
老伴是此生離不開的愛人。
有她在日子才充實，
有她在的家才溫暖。
老伴是和你沒有血緣關係的人，
卻也是陪你最多，伴你最久的人，
老伴，
是今生牽了手，
來世還想一起走的人。
老伴老伴，
老來伴！
年紀越大，越發現，
人最離不開的還是老伴，
旅遊時，希望陪著一起去的是老伴，
出門時，牽掛的是家裡的老伴，
開心時，最想分享的是老伴。
夫妻兩，
叫一聲老婆很輕鬆，
叫一聲老公很容易，
叫一句老伴卻需要一輩子，
好好珍惜那個與你同甘共苦的老伴，
好好陪伴那個對你不離不棄的老伴，
願天下的老夫妻們：
健康快樂，幸福甜蜜！
The ex-spouse's atitude:
Again, the same he gonna trying to drama to just prove that he is so much professional in dividing between the professional & personal. Well, I don't think I am over doing something. I did the same to all the sub-leaders. But, the response from all are same except the he.
Again, he is trying to appear like he is so much professional to able to sit in front of you with existence of everyone. To me, it is just a drama that i been watching. Well, ignorance started to be my vocab since then. Drama is just everywhere. A gentle leader or a man would be able to speak with facts during a personal or professional conversation. That's it.
I thought I am little smart in making a choice. Untill then, my marriage fell apart, it proved that I am the silly material.
Well, being compared to the sub leader with lancy atitude, some part i do salute him. He is lancy but straight to the point & able to deliver at least some conclusion with positive outcome.
Uhhh, the ex-spouse is just remain improving 0.1%. The ex-spouse is just able to disappoint every parties without failure.
The last week back in hometown.
So happy to visit grandma again. This is a culture my mummy instill in us since baby. Family reunion & unite. Mommy always stand by side. Mommy's love wins everyone. It is just not a love that a spouse would do. If to be exact, the ex-spouse's atitude is a silent voilence to me. He wants to have his own decision with hearing to your opinions. But when giving about my opinions, it became a negativity that it appeared as if i am trying to be dominant. At the end, it wouldn't be a happy solving or sharing. The love is not about holding hands and doing whatever as like a couple must do only. The love among the spouse is about the commiting & helping each others for every situation & condition. To be exact, love is not the surface only. It is not how good he looks like. It is about he is really good in giving the respects & supports. Obviously, I am not having any. And, the divorce is the best gift from the heaven. It taught me a lot since then. I am seriously tired. Haiz... Ang Shin Yee started to silence a lot from all the things. Ang Shin Yee's inacent & initiative had been seriously killed since then.
I build my own home,
I fight for my own financial,
I argue for my own right,
I move the mind for my own sake,
It's repeated again & again with day by day...Until, I had lost majority memories & impression.
The only one i did it successfully was the video was not been repeatedly watch by me since don't know when.
I meet every new person by serving people a drive.
And, each of every passengers when asking about my marital status, it turns out to be different answers.
"I AM SINGLE"
"I AM DIVORCED"
"I AM NEWLY MARRIED"
"I AM MARRIED WITH NO KID"
"I AM MARRIED WITH A KID"
or
"I AM MARRIED"
At the beginning, those status was appeared to be a matter to me.
Slowly, it was digested into no matter.
Slowly getting used with it, it is just a sentence with a probable paper stated to me.
It turns out to be:
"Do a non supportive marriage matter at all?"
Grandma was giving a very straight-to-point's advice. A person looks good & he may appear to be everything good. But most importantly, does a guy treat you the best? If he treat you good, means he is the good to be with. Grandma was not given notice about the divorcy. But, in this 5years time, she been watching her grand daughter alone with all the trips back to hometown. After hearing popo's advice, i was actually wanting to cry out. But, it is just a tear without sounds. Because popo was bed ridden for 4years already. She is very tough. I love her so much.
Ya, popo, it is so much sad that i am stuck in my career & my family growth. I am seriously looking for a man who is responsible to family of me.
I pray hard for everything to be turned into rainbow's colour.
I pray for a Mr Right who loves me all he can.
I pray for a Mr Right who can share together & laugh together & cry together.
Super sales for lelong! Oh no~
🙏🙏🙏
