Diary of the day - Patience and thankful

I am really in need of patience to fade away the lapses off. Why do the days pass by so driftly? All the things are just like a painful dream. If it is successfully being saved, what would be the consequences look like? Those days with the little younger guy really makes me feeling the difference. Maturity neither by age nor appearance, it's by the education background. I admit that I am seriously in filtration failures towards personality. "Don't judge the book by the cover." 

Tears dropped down when previewing the scenarios but I still insist pursuing a complete family of my own. It sounds silly that I don't know when the dreams come true. But, I wish that I will be led into the correct path of a happy family. 

Only God knows my voices. I hope that God would give me that way of life. Praying hard...

Dear God, I am so sorry about the stubborn of mine all these whiles. I seek for all Your forgiveness that I can have a better chance to recover and restart. I am fully feeling appreciate for the life challenges that are given to me. I wish that everyone would keep hearts open and patient when life gets harder. Heavens come after storms. We must stay pretty healthy and super duper strong whenever in woes. That's so called livelihood that everyone must go through. Be thankful and be grateful.

Amitaba~!