心路旅程

部落格的字迹最适合与歌曲相伴点缀了。翻了一页一页的照片，原来我的朋友们渐渐远去了。虽然自信心么没什么高，但渐渐发现它慢慢减低了。今天逛了双威一个下午。我感觉到了极点的孤独寂寞。看见周围的圣诞树，那里是我和准德拍拍照的地点。时间过得真快也带给我了很多的感触。总在圈圈绕着问为啥我拥有的是有名无实的婚姻？很多人都在身边鼓励我选择的坚持路。但，总害怕自己忘了当初的感觉。很懊恼。婚姻里的自由和呵护，我似乎都没有。这时，我多希望出现一位奋不顾身的英雄为我打气，给我信心。甚至问自己，世界上的哪个角落，是否有人想念我、偷偷的爱我呢？如有，我真的会特别感激。可是。。那应该是我的幻想而已。我需要一个安慰呵护爱我的肩膀。希望有这么一天的出现。祈祷～

Diary of the day - Patience and thankful

I am really in need of patience to fade away the lapses off. Why do the days pass by so driftly? All the things are just like a painful dream. If it is successfully being saved, what would be the consequences look like? Those days with the little younger guy really makes me feeling the difference. Maturity neither by age nor appearance, it's by the education background. I admit that I am seriously in filtration failures towards personality. "Don't judge the book by the cover." 

Tears dropped down when previewing the scenarios but I still insist pursuing a complete family of my own. It sounds silly that I don't know when the dreams come true. But, I wish that I will be led into the correct path of a happy family. 

Only God knows my voices. I hope that God would give me that way of life. Praying hard...

Dear God, I am so sorry about the stubborn of mine all these whiles. I seek for all Your forgiveness that I can have a better chance to recover and restart. I am fully feeling appreciate for the life challenges that are given to me. I wish that everyone would keep hearts open and patient when life gets harder. Heavens come after storms. We must stay pretty healthy and super duper strong whenever in woes. That's so called livelihood that everyone must go through. Be thankful and be grateful.

Amitaba~!