Love U U

傻阿比，郑准德～～～我看见你了，你驶这条路吗。哈哈
为什么你的嘴巴那么含金？
没关系，我默默等你。
等你的全心醒悟。事情根本不复杂，我们一起面对吧。爱你，不忍心也得忍。
Muacks~咱们加油吧，卍● 阿弥陀佛 ●卐

😎My war with dignity 😎

Yeah, F.O.S to the useless fellows.
Dig the useless holes to gain my and our dignities back.
My war will win with victory.
Asshole, just don't be too ego.
Beware of the shits your sides pushed to me.
I build it with the patience.
I am no scare about it.
It is just a fundamental to achieve my victory.
You start the game, I will make sure you suffer the endless swords.
A war with dignity.
Please asshole learn to respect people.

Blurry bored and keep dreaming

A cozy lazy zone and this situate me to have an empty brain and feeling bore. Google searching through, I am lingering around to find out some relevant articles on:-
● "An age 28 for females"
● "A contented divorcee after few months marriage"

And, I stare on the person I am married to. What's my feelings? I feel it's truly completely useless to proceed trying for rescues. I would have just wasted my efforts. And, the word "incompatible" floated from the article.

To me, incompatible is an excuse. But since, it was the word kept coming out of his mouth, I really need to deeply consider about it.

We had wasted a lot of time in arguments and no-tolerant resulting in the incompatible. Now, only time and opportunity could switch the hardcore situations.

I shall proceed having and enjoying my life apart with completely alone. Being alone is strictly lonely but making me fruitful thoughts in mind. It is timely enjoying by myself. Is it sounding weird? Anyone could have agreed to me?

I am not sure how eventually the things gonna be. But, I truly dreaming of having a complete loving family. May god blessing me and my dream.

I wanna have a baby baby boy with the boy acting cute and naughty. And, I will be screaming out:" oh my god, I am a mummy of a kid."

Hahahahahaha.. this is ridiculous.

F.O.S

Words of the day, that's F.O.S = fuck off shit.

It's truly touching with tears rolling out when my papa attended the ceremony because of mommy's request for his daughter - me.

It's truly touching with tears rolling out when the ex-leader cooperate for something sent out with request. 

A morality and nice guy will do the right thing even you are not anyone else.

It is just making me feel that I am most probably meeting a wrong guy for the marriage. A successful marriage is always put your spouse first. In reality, I am really having none but own survival to make the life comes true. This is a sickening family that I had stepped into. More saddening is that my thought of lovingly and caring husband not even seeking for the truth to know for the root causes. He isn't knowing his own elderly's doings. Then, we know why a 3years plus relationship fails when it is in a freshly 2months marriage.

This incident really put me from an optimistic to a pessimistic, from a 100% happy into a low profile person. This is truly the greatest turmoil that I have ever had along 28years.

It makes me realize that when a guy present something nice, it may not represent the real nice. In contrary, a bad mouth may have a great soft heart. This is really ridiculous, right?

Okay, I need to swipe off my tears and start a new day with works. F.O.S

Bssshhhhhh~~~~~~

怀孕的感觉是怎样嘀？

同月同日婚的朋友已经有宝宝了。
比我早婚一两年的朋友已经待产第二胎了耶。
我的婚姻到底正在干嘛呀？
还在继续发梦。哎呀呀～～～
当母亲和父亲的感觉，到底是怎么一回事？
阿弥陀佛，我真的很想经历这一切耶。
完美人生一家亲。很期待～～～
何时何时呀？
怀胎的感觉到底是怎么样嘀？
阿弥陀佛，我真的很很想有个温馨完美的家庭。
祈祷ing。感恩合十 _/ \_

♥缘♥

好久没更新部落格了。
近期，本人正经历一个严峻的过度期。
一个人孤孤单单的，有想法了，但懒惰开嘴，就在这儿叙述心情。
时间过得真是快，转眼就频频要步入了年尾。
人与人恩怨究多，难道真的要拼死拼活只为了一口气吗？有时候，我抓狂了头，还不懂，我真的那么让他一家人那么恨透吗？甚至怀疑有必要把我置于死地那么残忍吗？首是究我生活习惯，后是死硬传我家事，现在却以传闻暗示要我搬迁。我们都是有感情的，所以才那么坚持我的比比～～～
唉～～人生每每就是错在太相信。但也不后悔，因为诚心相对至少对得起自己。但或许本人的直率激怒了大家。唉～～怎么之前好好的，现在似乎好像打仗一样？这场战争，我边边观察看待，武器老是丢来扔去。但，其实关键都在于一个人和我们两个人，那为什么就是沉默而不了事呢？是否前世因后世果？这段缘份还没经历就宣告不治？蹦波寻求方案去努力挽救，种种冷反应只让我推向低落。唉～～这考验真的实在太严峻啦～～～～是不是求婚顺答的太快，所以很 cheap?唉～缘分怎么那么不如天意呢？女人只想有段美好婚路完美家庭恩爱永恒，怎么那么难？哎哎哎～～～

低落的这时候，给我阅读了这篇逆缘和善缘之文章。
读过以后，觉得安慰一下。
原来逆缘或善缘都是好缘。
谢谢谢谢谢谢。
我确实想听见这么的激励文章。
观音娘娘、释迦摩尼佛、阿弥陀佛，我真的不贪，我只祈求有个美好的小康之家。请求您们给予我一次机会团圆，好吗？pleaseeeeee~~~~~~~
真希望战争尽快结束。

已婚但单身的歌乐节

一个人的巴生歌乐节。。
听着大小提琴加钢琴演奏，感觉这种音乐如果在大便时播放的话，便应该很顺畅。。。哈哈哈哈。。挺享受的。。不懂这把年纪如果练乐器会不太老咧？一直有冲动但都没行动而这把冲动跟着岁月慢慢变成被动。。噢麦锅～～～～
已婚单身的自己，何时给自己一个音乐冲进咧？？？
眼看隔壁座小孩的爸爸真是位好爸爸、好丈夫。有小孩的家长就应该这样，安排一系列家庭活动，好羡慕也期待自己的这么类似家庭互动。
独唱女高音，我就不会欣赏啦。让我感觉像鬼叫的面相。咦～～～
如果有谁有女高音妈妈，我想耳朵会破膜耶。gili 到～～～～～～不能接受。

女人的心事

女人需要那么没志气吗？
没有爱情，就没有爱情的烦。
有了恋爱，就因为吵架而烦。
烦过恋爱，就结婚。
结了婚，就因为小差错吵架，又在烦。

女人，真的那么需要爱情吗？
好显啊～～～～～
现在一个人我行我素，挺自由自在。
可是，当照着镜子前的自己时，真的觉得自己还蛮落魄 。
有些懒惰是因为先天懒。
可是，我的懒惰，却是懒惰理睬好多事情。
唉～～
人家说：“月圆人团圆”。
阿弥陀佛，请问我是否一辈子的我行我素还是再过一阵子就月圆花好呢？
佛陀，请问我上辈子是不是一位很坏、没文化的人？所以，这一世，您想惩罚我？
阿弥陀佛，我也不懂最后的结局该怎么好才是好，但我真的诚恳祈求我的人生路可以雨过天晴。
阿弥陀佛，如果痛苦非要我这一世还清，请求佛主让我一人承担。希望我家两老可以好好生活愉快的。
阿弥陀佛，我懂得“有缘千里来相会”，请问佛主，我是否经历着逆缘呢？
阿弥陀佛，事情的开始真的很突然，让我措手不及也让我深感痛苦。后来，我渐渐体会人生能有几回愁？或许您感觉我太生在福中不知福，所以您注定了相遇相爱，也给予离别考验。但，阿弥陀佛，我真的领悟了，不贪念。或许，过程当中有了伤感，但也没必要恨之入骨。阿弥陀佛，我祈求一切可以得以安宁、得以原谅和谅解。阿弥陀佛，愿一切考验可以早日平息、愿在这月圆月里，一切伤感的可以过眼云烟，重回团圆。阿弥陀佛，请求您可以加持保佑。感恩合十 _/ \_