1.4.2011 (Friday)

Mom's says are just too right for me. I'm just too stubborn. She gave me times to think and think again on what I planned for my after graduation life. It looks a little unfortunate when a plan that I aimed for almost half a year seems going to spoil. I think I gonna miss the chance to go for AIESEC. I just can't convince my mom with the $. I'm going to miss it. Arghh.. but the same time I'm relieved. Because the part times I carried out just looked so stupid! Wasted a lot of time by a little earnings. Hmmm... Disappointed with my own...

Today was just an unspecial day to me even been called up for interview in a manufacturing company. An unprepared interview session that I had went through. I would say :"WOW! The bullets were too strong where they just like to pick and ask for every single word I spoke to make sure I am strong and decisive!" Amazing... Haha, I would give an applause for myself for being so independently trying out. They just inspired me and tried to demolish the contradicts that I had made. Knowledge really was just a dash of our lives and every turning point brings a brand new life. Confidence make us survive! A person would have collapsed him/herself if he/she can't bring their own out confidently. Hehehehe...

Another thing I am going to share on today is I had met up another nice taxi driver. Hahaha... When we saw an honest people doing good deeds to us, every bads that happened to us would just disappear by itself. It was touching when a stranger willing to do every order that you are asking for. The driver had just made me feel like a momentary queen. A big comfortable seat just picked me for everywhere I wanted to go. The feeling was just so amazing as it made make me feel the free and unbounding atmosphere. As the taxi passing down the streets and highways, I wished so much for someone who willingly to share the same free moments in the car. How wished I was to meet up the same favor friends in sharing the same or made a chaos in the car. Aih, wishing so much to meet up at least one... Or else, it would just a forever lonely stuff...

Yes, I admitted for my bad temper recently because of mood complexions that were attacking me. Every single thing to be scared of when thinking of future, what to do for my current fyp to make me eligible for the longing graduation, what to do if I am still all alone in future working life... Aih, I don't wanna being confined for the schedule life cycles. I seriously in need of ONE to tell me that I am going all alright and gives me the courages in doing everything. And yes I admit that I have a bad managing on my own communication skills. I have been too long in doing things all the way by myself. I don't know whichever is right to make a deal in making the communication way. I would have asked a silly question without conscious. Arg... Hopefully, there will be an ending of being everything on my own very soon. May god bless me with a good stuff even I know I am not that nice...please?? .. :)

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